schizoscriptures is quite honestly the most astounding musician i've had the pleasure of working with. included in this entry is some deeply resonant perspective on general living, as well as particularly enlightening notes she's written for us on music production. for those of you sonically inclined, i believe this will be a treat, due to the shear magnitude of her dedication to the craft.
-o.r.

My band is Schizoscriptures. I compose and record, and my friend Levi plays session drums. When we perform live, I do vocals and Levi plays drums.

This is an abridged list of music production notes / my personal philosophy about production:

-Clipping distortion sounds good. instead of clipping the master into red... mix tracks into a bus and clip the bus. anything clipped together becomes one texture that you can sidechain to drums or whatever. this makes it easy to have 300 things play at once, but not obscure eachother, because they're collapsed into 5 textures or something you can control easier.

-my music is my life and develops with my life. thoughts about my life ferment for weeks and then I make a song. I think about my life in pretty/lyrical ways, in images and in characters. The lyrics are a distillation of all the thoughts I had. I usually write lyrics very quickly. I scrap hundreds of songs every year. Nothing is wasted, it is all a stepping stone. The songs I keep are usually 99% finished, with vocals, in one day. 100 attempts preceeded them, and they are a distilation of all the musical ideas i got right. I use my emotional outbursts/writing for reference when making lyrics.

-listen to your thoughts. if something isnt good enough, change it. you can paint on top of paint forever until you get what you want. if someone else can do it, you can, with determination. if there is even something vaguely bothering you, reminding you of something you dislike, take care of it. it might take months of agony but the payoff is worth it.

-if im going to learn something im going to learn it right. if im going to use a compressor, im going to spend a month neurotically using 30 compressors in different ways, theorizing about insane nonsense until i have a psychotic episode and finally discover exactly what I like out of compression and why. I wont stop until I master each tool, so that my decisions about what to use where are well informed. This is why I generally only use stock FL plugins, and only like 5 of them. 99% of my synths are from 3xOsc, with a long effects chain.

-eq and compression are overated. I swear its all about clipping and reverb. Also note; the OTT vst is fun, but its like a secret weapon. if you use it more than thrice in a track, your track usually sounds like shit. but if you literally cant figure out how to make a single specific track audible, ott that one thing and its loud as shit now.


There are no correct answers. This is just my philosophy for my style. go out there and get your own by being a obsessive-neurotic psycho about the thing you love to make. never compromise. much love

My name is Lucy M.G. Watcher

I write about my life. i did not design my life, so I am not writing about MYSELF. I am writing about things that will exist in other people's lives after i die. I am writing about what happened to me. if i do not write these things, someone else can and will.

I believe people who suffer the most, inflict the most suffering. They do it out of insecurity. I believe nobody at peace feels the need to lash out. You might think someone who hurt you is perfect and might secretly be right for what they did... they aren't. I swear they never were.

Nobody is born an adult. With few directions, we do the best we can with what we have. we will all make mistakes as we learn how to live. There are no evil people, only evil actions. We are all former children who secretly desire peace.

I think my life inflicted wounds that should have made me kill myself. I dont think anyone with an intact soul could survive that. Out of fate or random chance, it simply was not my turn to live. i hate my life for torturing me, and i hate myself for becoming just like the people who hurt me. My life gave me horrible insecurities, and i have hurt many people in my past for it.

I often wish i could burn in hell forever and it would make everything okay for everyone ive ever met... but we cannot change the past. I am the worst of the worst. I have to make the world better by confronting my insecurities and doing good in the world. but, i cant claw my way out of this just for myself, it feels selfish. I feel guilt, like i deserve to die, like i should have died a long time ago before i did anything bad. but, if i can live this life, then recover to peace?.. then ANYONE can. i make art about agony because its the only thing that makes my life feel like it wasn't complete agony for nothing. maybe if i manage to recover, and write these things, it can help someone else experiencing this horrible pain.

I empathize with the worst of the worst, because they need it most, because they are beautiful. When you believe that nobody could love you for your life, i sincerely wish to, no matter what you've done. I want you to know I am just like you. I want you to remember that you were a child filled with love before this life happened to you. this life was not your fault. I promise we are all the same species, you can find peace just like anyone else. It's not your fate to suffer, this world is unfair. Self destruction is tempting but it will never give you what you secretly want. I swear that the "right thing to do" is the right thing to do, because nothing else will fix all of this.

I empathize with the outcasts, the wannabe shooters, the incels, the degenerates, the people enveloped in misanthropy and self hatred, the people beyond redemption... because nobody seems to, and thats why this keeps happening. I love you, sincerely. I WAS you, sincerely. I swear we can escape, one fragment of hope at a time. Be ANGRY for what your life did to you. we can reclaim our innocence, our joy for life. I will push as hard as I can until this life kills me. Dont succumb to temptation forever, it will never give you what you truly want.

A friend once told me, "Vulnerability is clumsy but it is the only thing that means anything". You cannot be impenetrable. You must believe that other people are real, that love is real, that peace is real. Anyone who says they understand the meaning of life, through spirituality or science, is a liar. You must have hope and be willing to fall again and again. You have nothing to lose. You are never damaged beyond repair. you must listen to your emotions, no matter how terrifying, because they will give your life meaning. Keep fighting. Nothing has to be like this. I love you.

-Lucy Machineghost Watcher